Long Time No Write….

Well, folks… I know you are thinking… “Dang! That girl just fell off the face of the earth and has disappeared, really!!!” I promise I have not. I am lurking in the dark here… still rocking maintenance and giving a little support here and there on the blogs that I follow. There just really isn’t much to say on the day to day, so I try not to bore you with random junk.

I do have to say, maintenance is a whole other ball of wax and your mental stuff never really totally goes away. I think I will have “issues” in some form or another for the rest of my life. Now, I have talked a lot about things… been pretty blunt about things… and tried to be as honest as possible. Skin is one thing that keeps coming up over and over. To be honest… I really don’t think too much about it… but let me tell you why. I live in a house that was built in the early 60’s. Master bathrooms were not as luxurious as they are these days and so… my bathroom mirror is about 15″ X 24″ and I see from about mid-chest up… like I don’t even see boobs. This means on the day to day… I don’t see myself naked. When I do go look in the full length mirror (in my boys’ bathroom) I am already fully clothed and running out the door to work, etc. So for the most part, I rarely see me naked. So, in my mind… I look fine, like I do with clothes on. This is kinda funny though because I am always AMAZED when I go shopping for clothes and see myself scantly clad. I’m like… “DAMN! What the hell happened. I am looking like a wax candle that’s been sitting in the sun.” I always go home and apologize to my husband over and over for him having to see that mess naked. He just shakes his head and says… “Baby, the best part of my day is you naked!” and just hugs me tight. (Did I mention that I have THE best husband of all times?!?) I am able to fit into some 6’s but generally an 8 is always going to fit. That is crazy to wrap my head around. I mean… from a 24… that’s just insane! So, will I get the skin removed? I don’t know… I have kids who need to go to college in the next 2-4 years and bills to pay. I’m a cheap girl… so unless my imaginary rich grandmother pays for it… probably not anytime soon. 

I was telling someone the other day that I caught my reflection in the mirror while in the bathroom (we were tailgating at the local university football game) and I almost did not recognize myself. Still, even now… I just stood there with my mouth all gaped open staring. I looked like every other co-ed in the bathroom. It was weird and wonderful. I wasn’t the fat lady. I was a cute girl. Or at least I thought I was cute. LOL! I still have moments where people haven’t seen me in months and then they do… some recognize me and some do not. They always say, “Gawlee… you lost a ton of weight!” It always makes me laugh.

So here’s what you want to know… STATS…

I think I was about 146 this morning. It goes up and down… but I DO weigh every morning. It just keeps me accountable and on top of my weight. I still go through moments of logging my food. I like to always take a poll of what is going in. You’d be surprised at what you let slip by if you aren’t paying attention.

I am attaching a few pictures for your viewing pleasure. I DO workout every day. I do cardio and strength training. I think it is VERY important to maintain muscle mass. Yes, I have a crap ton of extra skin… but you can see what you can do with skin when dressed the right way. LOL! Enjoy!!!

This is one of my Before photos… I was right at 300 pounds and wore about a 24ish.

This was just the other day. I weight about 146-148. Wear a size 8 and a medium top.

Skin. Yikes. I do a 3 minute plank everyday. This is what dangles underneath me as I plank. Sexy…

Underneath my side plank.

Another side plank.

I know it’s gross… but, it is what it is… and I look pretty good in clothes. So all I’m saying is… be realistic. You can’t have a balloon blown way the hell up for years and years and expect it to retain the correct shape when  you let the air out. Ha! I’m happy. I love my life. I love my husband and kids. I love who I’ve become. Skin is just skin. Love yourself!!!

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This entry was posted on September 27, 2016. 17 Comments

Nothing worth having is EASY…

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So I keep reading from many of you… “I’m not losing very fast.” “Everyone is losing faster than me.” “What if this is it? What if I won’t lose anymore weight?” “What if the surgery didn’t work?” That is failure talking. That is the old mind set rearing its ugly head. You have GOT to stop the negative, self loathing talk. Why do we do this to ourselves? You cannot let past failures determine your future. You have the control here. Honestly, if you FOLLOW THE PLAN your body will release the weight. Will you go as fast (or as slow) as I went? NO! You will go at the pace your body was designed to go and not a pound faster. This is tough MENTAL work folks. If you haven’t gotten yourself hooked up with a therapist… you may want to do this. It can be very helpful.

Look… my body was designed to work perfectly. It was. I messed that up. (Well, to be perfectly honest… Adam and Eve kinda derailed that train… but that is a whole other post… so back to me…) I have made choices all throughout my life that have changed and manipulated the way my body was intended to function. I made it fat. I made it slow. I made it sick. But you know what the grand news is?!?! I can also CHANGE what I have done. Now I make healthy choices. I exercise. I move. I build muscle. I make my body healthy and happy. I do that. Look people… I got fat slowly and over time. Guess how I got healthy?!? Slowly and over time. Am I cured?!?! OH HELL NO! I still struggle with head stuff. I will always struggle with that. But I own it and face it head on everyday. There is NO place for negative talk. I could sit here and pick apart my body if I wanted to. I could believe that I still need to lose more weight. I need to be a size 6 rather than an 8. My excess skin makes my body ugly. I’ll never look like a Victoria’s Secret model. On and on I could go… But you know what?!?! I am the BOMB! I am healthy, happy, sexy, amazing, smart, and freaking hysterical. I want to hang out with me cause I’m awesome! HAAAAAAA! Many people would say this makes me an arrogant bitch. It doesn’t. It makes me a fan of myself. Look… think of this… would you bust your tail as hard as you have been for someone you didn’t like too much? I know I wouldn’t. I mean… losing weight SUCKS. It is hard. All the working out and sweating. Dang. And to do it for someone you don’t like?!?! Nope. Ain’t happening. So folks… LOVE YOURSELF. Be ok with saying amazing stuff about yourself. Find things to love! There is NOTHING wrong with being your #1 fan. Take your clothes off and dance in front of the mirror until you fall in love with you… or fall on the floor laughing (which is what I did… that’s some funny stuff right there). But you have to start somewhere. You have spent all these years hating the person that you are. Learn to love you. If you don’t… you will NEVER be 100% satisfied with anything you do. And that includes losing weight.

Don’t all throw sticks at me for being hard core, brutally honest… Many days we all need a flat palm to the face. It just has to happen. I need one from time to time. Just know this… when I respond to your posts… I’m not being mean. I am trying to be the crab that pulls you OUT of the bucket rather than the one that pulls you back in. It’s cause I LOVE where I am and I want you to be there WITH me! So… dust off those “I” statements… those affirmations… and that positivity…. Start loving you!!!!

On to my stats…

  • Starting weight May 5, 2015: 300
  • May 18, 2015: 270 (-30)
  • Month ONE – June 5, 2015: 260 (-40)
  • Month TWO – July 8, 2015: 239 (-61)
  • Month THREE – August 5, 2015: 225 (-75)
  • Month FOUR – September 5, 2015 210 (-90)
  • Month FIVE – October 5, 2015 199 (-101)
  • Month SIX – November 5, 2015 188 (-112)
  • Month SEVEN – December 5, 2015 178 (-122)
  • Month EIGHT – January 6, 2016 174 (-126)
  • Month NINE – February 5, 2016 170 (-130)
  • Month TEN – March 5, 2016 166 (-134)
  • Month ELEVEN – April 5, 2016 163 (-137)
  • Month TWELVE – May 5, 2016 159 (-141)
  • Month THIRTEEN – June 5, 2016 154 (-146)
  • Month FOURTEEN – July 5, 2016 149 (-151) GOAL MET!!!!!!!

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Look at that! She did it! Met that goal of 150 on July 1st. 4 days short of 14 months. WOOOOOHOOOOO! Now on to maintain my goal between 150 and 155. I allowed myself a 5 pound buffer so I wouldn’t freak out when the numbers fluctuate. And I know they will fluctuate. Honestly… I did want to lose some more weight, but my husband and mother say no. Since I have NO real vision of what looks normal for myself… I have to trust them. So, on to maintenance. I know I can do this… just have to learn my new normal.

Love you! Now YOU love YOU!

DD

And we’re STILL working it!

Hello, my friends!

I know… I am only about 10 days late in posting. I try so hard to post on the 5th of every month… but there always seems to be something crazier going on. I do post the stats from that day though. Just so you know what really happens in a month. I’ve been reading lots of friends’ postings about feeling like the surgery did not work for them because they are either not losing weight as fast as others OR they have hit a stall. Look, we all hit a stall from time to time. It is the nature of losing weight. You just have to be diligent about logging and watching what you eat/drink. As you go along this journey you are going to encounter emotional events that will entice you to emotionally eat. You are going to have stressful events that are going to tempt you to fall head first into a bag of Cheetos! You are going to feel AMAZING about your weight loss and be tempted to stray from plan… just this once. It’s all going to happen. The goal of this journey is to LEARN how to handle these situations. We did not end up the size of a small storage shed by accident. We ate ourselves into a joyful, comforting, depressing, and deadly food coma. We did this! Now we have to learn how to NOT do this. We have to face our fears, stresses, celebrations, and social events with the knowledge that we CAN do it without eating. I told someone recently that I’d almost rather be an alcoholic because the cure would be to just never drink again. Now, I’m saying this off the cuff so DO NOT throw stones at me. I have a friend who is an alcoholic and it IS NOT easy. But… my point is, we have to learn to continue in our addiction everyday without losing control rather than just never eating again. It’s like telling a crack addict… just do one crack rock a day for the rest of your life… GOOD LUCK! It’s hard shit people. Especially when you get crazy close to the “end goal.” I am so close to my 150 I can hardly stand it. So, there are days that the maple nut goodies on my husband’s desk are screaming my name… and I wear a size 8 now… so what would it hurt?!?! LOL! The struggle is real y’all!

Anyway… I want you to know, even now, I think about what I eat and drink… all the time. It will never end. I am not obsessed with it… but I also know if I don’t think about it everyday, I will forget and then small storage shed, here I come.

OH… something I have discovered… If your Barista at Starbucks loves you like MY Barista loves me… he will let you bring your own sugar free vanilla almond milk to make your skinny lattes. HELLO two-three carbs only!!! I get a venti latte with two pumps of white mocha (yes, it has a little sugar) and 4 pumps of skinny caramel… BLONDIE LATTE. Yummo! If they won’t use your almond milk… you can get coconut milk. It has about 16 carbs vs. the usual 50 when you use milk. Just an idea.

Also… I have been doing all these 30 day challenges lately. I think I told you about my planking challenge. I still plank everyday. It makes me feel strong! I also added a butt lift challenge and a sleek arm challenge around the same time. Still doing those and love them. Though my butt is VERY flat… you can feel the little muscle in there. But, I have always had a flat butt. More like a crack in my lower back. Yes, it is that bad. But…. my arms! Y’all! My arms are BANGING! My shoulders and arms look so freaking hot in sleeveless things! Even to where people ask me what I do to get such great arms. That feels fabulous! I have recently added a 30 day waist trainer challenge and a 30 day flat ab challenge. They too make me feel really strong. After doing all of those moves, I hop on the elliptical and do another 45 minutes. Since I am so close to goal, sometimes I even do that whole routine twice a day. Just depends on what’s going on. Point is… who is this chic?!?! I’ll attach the routine below. They really are easy and quick!

30 day sleek arms30 Day Butt Lift30-day-ab-challenge-230 day waist trainer

Now… on to the exciting stuff. Here are my stats:

  • Starting weight May 5, 2015: 300
  • May 18, 2015: 270 (-30)
  • Month ONE – June 5, 2015: 260 (-40)
  • Month TWO – July 8, 2015: 239 (-61)
  • Month THREE – August 5, 2015: 225 (-75)
  • Month FOUR – September 5, 2015 210 (-90)
  • Month FIVE – October 5, 2015 199 (-101)
  • Month SIX – November 5, 2015 188 (-112)
  • Month SEVEN – December 5, 2015 178 (-122)
  • Month EIGHT – January 6, 2016 174 (-126)
  • Month NINE – February 5, 2016 170 (-130)
  • Month TEN – March 5, 2016 166 (-134)
  • Month ELEVEN – April 5, 2016 163 (-137)
  • Month TWELVE – May 5, 2016 159 (-141)
  • Month THIRTEEN – June 5, 2016 154 (-146)

I have about 4 more pounds to go and then I will be at goal. I may or may not hit it by the time June 5th rolls around. But, I will keep pushing forward until I do. Now… Do I have loose skin? Hell yeah! You can’t leave a balloon blown up for 45 years and deflate it without it being somewhat out of whack. But it is OK. I may have it removed next year… and I may not. It is really expensive and I have kids who need to go to college soon. I guess I will cross that bridge later. Right now I am just really happy with me. And I really mean that.

Love yourself. Love others.Choose JOY!

DD

This entry was posted on June 15, 2016. 9 Comments

ONE Year 


Well… Here we are! It’s one year since my surgery. Ok, so it’s one year and 5 days. It’s crazy this time of the school year so I’m a little bit behind on my posting. Sorry! I will post the actual weight of my weigh-in day rather than today’s weight. But before I do… I am going to ramble just a bit. I still keep up with lots of the folks who had surgery around the time I had surgery. I also read lots of other blogs of new folks. Trying to offer help and encouragement where I can. Many of you know I am a straight shooter. I tell the truth, try to smack you out of your negative/nit picky spiral, and celebrate ALL victories. This mess is hard. It’s a mental struggle. You can get SO wrapped up inside yourself that you lose sight of the real successes. I’ve done it from time to time. We all do. The key is to stay focused on the “rules” of the sleeve (or whatever your tool) and move your body! Find something you love to do and DO it. My thing is the elliptical and strength training. No less than 5 days a week. Sometimes twice a day (depending on stress levels). This isn’t just something to do until the weight is off. This is something you’ll do for the rest of your life. The way you need to eat to be successful is how you will eat for the rest of your life. See, it’s not about getting healthy… It’s about BEING healthy. It’s an action word. BE healthy. Everyday. Make the right choices everyday. Not for the term of your “diet” but for your whole life. If you aren’t looking at it this way… You’ll be fat again in no time. Yes. That’s mean to say… But it’s true. My brain doesn’t even work the way it did a year ago. If it did, I wouldn’t be here writing this. 

Now hear this!!! Just because you lose the weight your life is not magically transformed into the perfect fairytale. If you have issues now… You will have issues later. Your weight is NOT he root of all your mess. I used to LOVE to blame problems on my weight. I mean, weight was an issue, but not THE issue. I have used this year to not only transform myself physically… But in other ways too. I strongly suggest you do the same. Really take stock of what’s going on in your life and begin the hard work of handling things. I’m a little type A and somewhat obsessive about things. I’ve really been honest with myself over the past year and worked on some things in my personal and professional life… what a difference a year makes! Look, if you’re already working hard you may as well get on with it… Right?!? Small changes everyday add up to a huge transformation!!!

Ok. I’ve made many of you fall asleep already. Sorry! Here are my stats!

  • Starting weight May 5, 2015: 300
  • May 18, 2015: 270 (-30)
  • Month ONE – June 5, 2015: 260 (-40)
  • Month TWO – July 8, 2015: 239 (-61)
  • Month THREE – August 5, 2015: 225 (-75)
  • Month FOUR – September 5, 2015 210 (-90)
  • Month FIVE – October 5, 2015 199 (-101)
  • Month SIX – November 5, 2015 188 (-112)
  • Month SEVEN – December 5, 2015 178 (-122)
  • Month EIGHT – January 6, 2016 174 (-126)
  • Month NINE – February 5, 2016 170 (-130)
  • Month TEN – March 5, 2016 166 (-134)
  • Month ELEVEN – April 5, 2016 163 (-137)
  • Month TWELVE – May 5, 2016 159 (-141)

Had a 4 pound loss this month. Slow and steady. I still have 9 pounds to lose. It may take all summer long. But the fact of the matter is… I will lose the 9 pounds. I wear a 10 consistently. I’ve put on an 8 but it was snug. Yes, I have a crap ton of excess skin. I may have it removed but certainly not for a year. I want to be at my goal weight for a long while before making any decisions about that. I still follow the rules of my sleeve. I may have a nibble of a dessert every once in a blue moon… But it’s just not my thing. I still avoid trigger foods. No need to add that stuff back into my life. I still love my Starbucks. It makes me happy. I’ll be here each month… Letting you know how I’ve done. Accountability is SO important!!!! 

Please let me know if I can ever give you some tips or advice… Support or encouragement. I’ve been there!

Be good to yourself.😊

Eleven!

  
Well… It’s here. Time for the eleven month check in. I’ll get the stats out of the way because that’s pretty much what everyone wants to know. LOL!

  • Starting weight May 5, 2015: 300
  • May 18, 2015: 270 (-30)
  • Month ONE – June 5, 2015: 260 (-40)
  • Month TWO – July 8, 2015: 239 (-61)
  • Month THREE – August 5, 2015: 225 (-75)
  • Month FOUR – September 5, 2015 210 (-90)
  • Month FIVE – October 5, 2015 199 (-101)
  • Month SIX – November 5, 2015 188 (-112)
  • Month SEVEN – December 5, 2015 178 (-122)
  • Month EIGHT – January 6, 2016 174 (-126)
  • Month NINE – February 5, 2016 170 (-130)
  • Month TEN – March 5, 2016 166 (-134)
  • Month ELEVEN – April 5, 2016 163 (-137)

So basically I only lost three pounds this past month. I’m totally fine with that. By hitting the 163 mark, I am officially in the “normal” BMI range. This has been so insane to comprehend. I wear a size 10 pants and a medium/large top. Just depends on what my boobies want to fit in. I’ve gone from a 42DDD to a 36DD. But when I take my bra off… We are talking knee knockers! LOL! Flat and deflated. But again… A great bra handles that and I’m ok with them. If I had the excess skin removed from my belly I would probably be a size 8 but I won’t even entertain surgery for at least a year. And even then… It’s a matter of finances. I still want to lose another 13 pounds. That would make me feel more comfortable with the daily fluctuations of my weight. I had been teetering between 164 and 163 for weeks. That was horrible. I’d be like, “I’m skinny today.” “I’m fat today.” “I’m skinny today.” “I’m fat today.” I’ve stayed sold at 163 for multiple days so I think I’m about to hit 162. But the BMI bouncing up and down between “normal” and “overweight” was a big mind screw. If I lose the next 13 then fluctuations won’t freak me out as bad.

Ok… On to revelations… 

  

So, I’ve talked about discovering yourself before. Let me tell you… It really is just the wildest ride ever!!! I have learned to Stand Up Paddle Board. I bought myself a cool ass bike AND I like riding it. I still workout 5 days a week religiously. I became an archery coach (our team just took 3rd place at the state competition). I wear leggings AND look good in them. I love fashion and enjoy shopping just to put clothes on and don’t even have to buy them. I walk around my bedroom with no clothes on and don’t run if my husband comes in. I am about to take SCUBA diving lessons. Who the hell is this chick?!? IT’S ME! It’s the girl I’ve always been inside… But didn’t even know it. Originally, my blog was entitled Disappearing Darling: My journey to reveal the girl I always knew I was… But the world struggled to see.” Well, I have discovered, I really didn’t know me. I knew who I THOUGHT I was… But not who I REALLY am. Just so there is no confusion. I’m freaking awesome! 

 
You are too! There are going to be things about yourself you didn’t even know. As your weight comes off (much like peeling an onion) you’ll find new and crazy things about yourself. Embrace that! Be that gal or guy! Love who you are! It’s OK to be different than you imagined yourself to be. It’s fine to not like some stuff you used to do and like new stuff. It’s about self discovery and learning the new you. I’m pretty stoked about me. My outlook on life is totally different. More positive and adventurous. I can’t wait to see what else I learn about me!

See y’all next month!

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
 

This entry was posted on April 8, 2016. 9 Comments

I’m so far behind, I think I’m in FIRST! 

  
Well… My 10 month update was supposed to be on March 5th. I am pretty sure this is considered LATE! I’m sorry! It’s not that I’ve forgotten you guys. I read what you post everyday. And everyday ive said, “Gosh, I need to get on there and do my 10 month post.” So here we are like 20 days later and a few weeks away from month 11. I’ll post my stats from March 5th and then in a few weeks post the April 5th ones. I want to be real about how long it has taken to get here or there. If that makes sense. So here they are…

  • Starting weight May 5, 2015: 300
  • May 18, 2015: 270 (-30)
  • Month ONE – June 5, 2015: 260 (-40)
  • Month TWO – July 8, 2015: 239 (-61)
  • Month THREE – August 5, 2015: 225 (-75)
  • Month FOUR – September 5, 2015 210 (-90)
  • Month FIVE – October 5, 2015 199 (-101)
  • Month SIX – November 5, 2015 188 (-112)
  • Month SEVEN – December 5, 2015 178 (-122)
  • Month EIGHT – January 6, 2016 174 (-126)
  • Month NINE – February 5, 2016 170 (-130)
  • Month TEN – March 5, 2016 166 (-134)

It’s slowly coming off. Not nearly as rapidly as it used to… AND I have to really think about what I’m eating. I will say I have restriction when I follow the rules and don’t when I don’t. I still avoid triggers. I still refuse to drink soda of any kind. I’m still working out 5 mornings a week and even when I’m off… Because I feel like it HAS to be done if I’m going to work or not. I won’t say I’m OCD or anything…. But it’s just how it has to happen. LOL! I’m in a medium/large top depending on how it is cut. I wear 12 pants but should be wearing a 10. I just can’t see myself getting a whole new slew of pants until I hit my goal weight. Speaking of goal weight… I want to hit 150. That would allow me to fluctuate with a 5 pound buffer without freaking out. I just sort picked that number. Random. So I have my husband watching to see when enough is enough for my body size and shape. 150 is well within range for my height. In the middle. But it really depends on where he additional weight comes from. If it is my face and upper body… It probably won’t be a good goal weight. My face, chest, and shoulder area is thin enough. I need my belly to lose a little. Sadly, I think that’s all excess skin. But it’s easily covered in clothes. I recently went to Florida for Speing Break. It was SUCH a huge change from my time in Florida last Spring Break. I love the new me. I love doing ANYTHING I want to do without fear of fitting in the seat, getting too tired, or being too hot. I hope you are discovering cool stuff about yourself too. I guess I better hop off here. We woke up today and decided to go on a road trip to the coast. LOL! We were bored and thought… We need some beach! And away we go! I love life! But more importantly… I love me!

We’ll chat for the 11 month update in a few days!!!❤️

This entry was posted on March 26, 2016. 7 Comments

Steady as she goes….

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Well, I have been SO late in my nine month update. I will actually post the weight I was on the 5th of the month since that is the date I go by for my monthly weigh ins… But let me assure you that not much has changed. I mean, it has dropped a little… but I am going much, much slower than I used to go. I have to say, this is the first month that I have actually had to stop and reassess what I am putting in my mouth. Don’t get me wrong, I have not fallen off the wagon or anything. I am still a firm believer that some foods will just never cross my lips again. I just cannot go there. Goldfish and Cheeze-Its are never more my friend! I have been allowing a few more carbs here and there… but I have decided to pull back on those as well. It seems that my body wants to fall into maintenance. I have been flirting around with the same three pounds up and down since the first of the month. That scares the crap out of me because I am NOT done yet. So this past Saturday… I got back to basics and really watched my lazy habits. My saving grace is that I still do not get hungry nor do I eat much when I do eat. I suppose that is the great news. Even so… fat chicks aren’t fat chicks by accident. I ate the hell out of some food. I LOVED IT! I mean sure… sometimes it would be totally miserable after eating a huge meal… but it felt so glorious. It made me happy. Or at least I thought it did.

I am going to say something that may offend some people. I certainly hope it doesn’t. It is not my desire to hurt anyone. I watched a YouTube video the other day. It was by a girl who had been large most all her life and then had a vertical sleeve. She had since lost about 170 or so pounds. She said… When you are fat and you have been fat for most of your life, you really do not know who you are. Now, some people may say, “Oh, I know who I am. I am secure in the person that I am!” But really… if you have never been thin or a “normal” weight… you really do not know who you are or what you really like. You become a product of what society forces you to become OR you become a product of what your weight forces you to become. Let me explain. I have never been one to ride a bike. I have had one; however, I got rid of it because riding bikes isn’t all that fun, it makes your ass hurt, and there aren’t any good places to ride anyway. Well, that was me talking at 300 pounds. Who the heck wants to balance their big roast of a butt up on a tiny seat and then pedal around town… balancing on two tires?!? Sweating like a moose? NOT ME. But check me out now… almost 130 pound lighter. I love riding bikes. We are going to Pensacola Beach for a week next month (camping no less) and I told my husband we needed to take the bikes so we could ride into town rather than drive. I have probably always loved bike riding… but my weight made me think it sucked! Take clothes for example. I have always hated shopping. When wearing a 20 or a 24 you do not have many cute, fashionable choices… and if there is one, it is WAY to expensive or cut from a table cloth. So, I am conditioned to think that I don’t care about being fashion trendy and that I dislike shopping. That’s not true. I love shopping! I love looking cute. But that’s only since I have lost weight and discovered I have options. Like my friend Janell… she does yoga these days. She is a BOSS at yoga. But that’s only since she has discovered herself… under the layers. I say all of this because losing weight is MORE about gaining yourself… your REAL self, than it is about the weight. When you are big you are not able to be the REAL you. You accept things or reject things based completely off your weight. You may not know this about you now…. but you will discover it. Some people accept crazy, messed up relationships because they think that is all they deserve. They may not say that out loud… but it is there. I was there.

Well friends… I hope I didn’t ramble on too much. Maybe some of it made sense. Just stay focused. Keep your eyes on your goal. Your goal is NOT the number on the scale. It is discovering the amazing and beautiful YOU that God created you to be. Work towards finding THAT person… not just moving the needle down the number line. Choose JOY! I can’t tell you how transformative this journey has been for me… I am so thankful for each and every day!

Here are those stats you’ve been waiting for!!!!

  • Starting weight May 5, 2015: 300
  • May 18, 2015: 270 (-30)
  • Month ONE – June 5, 2015: 260 (-40)
  • Month TWO – July 8, 2015: 239 (-61)
  • Month THREE – August 5, 2015: 225 (-75)
  • Month FOUR – September 5, 2015 210 (-90)
  • Month FIVE – October 5, 2015 199 (-101)
  • Month SIX – November 5, 2015 188 (-112)
  • Month SEVEN – December 5, 2015 178 (-122)
  • Month EIGHT – January 6, 2016 174 (-126)
  • Month NINE – February 5, 2016 170 (-130)

Hopefully, it will keep moving in the right direction. I am ok with moving slowly… as long as I keep moving!

Love you all!

DD

This entry was posted on February 23, 2016. 4 Comments