- Starting weight May 5, 2015: 300
- May 18, 2015: 270 (-30)
- Month ONE – June 5, 2015: 260 (-40)
- Month TWO – July 8, 2015: 239 (-61)
- Month THREE – August 5, 2015: 225 (-75)
- Month FOUR – September 5, 2015 210 (-90)
- Month FIVE – October 5, 2015 199 (-101)
- Month SIX – November 5, 2015 188 (-112)
- Month SEVEN – December 5, 2015 178 (-122)
- Month EIGHT – January 6, 2016 174 (-126)
- Month NINE – February 5, 2016 170 (-130)
- Month TEN – March 5, 2016 166 (-134)
- Month ELEVEN – April 5, 2016 163 (-137)
So basically I only lost three pounds this past month. I’m totally fine with that. By hitting the 163 mark, I am officially in the “normal” BMI range. This has been so insane to comprehend. I wear a size 10 pants and a medium/large top. Just depends on what my boobies want to fit in. I’ve gone from a 42DDD to a 36DD. But when I take my bra off… We are talking knee knockers! LOL! Flat and deflated. But again… A great bra handles that and I’m ok with them. If I had the excess skin removed from my belly I would probably be a size 8 but I won’t even entertain surgery for at least a year. And even then… It’s a matter of finances. I still want to lose another 13 pounds. That would make me feel more comfortable with the daily fluctuations of my weight. I had been teetering between 164 and 163 for weeks. That was horrible. I’d be like, “I’m skinny today.” “I’m fat today.” “I’m skinny today.” “I’m fat today.” I’ve stayed sold at 163 for multiple days so I think I’m about to hit 162. But the BMI bouncing up and down between “normal” and “overweight” was a big mind screw. If I lose the next 13 then fluctuations won’t freak me out as bad.
Ok… On to revelations…
So, I’ve talked about discovering yourself before. Let me tell you… It really is just the wildest ride ever!!! I have learned to Stand Up Paddle Board. I bought myself a cool ass bike AND I like riding it. I still workout 5 days a week religiously. I became an archery coach (our team just took 3rd place at the state competition). I wear leggings AND look good in them. I love fashion and enjoy shopping just to put clothes on and don’t even have to buy them. I walk around my bedroom with no clothes on and don’t run if my husband comes in. I am about to take SCUBA diving lessons. Who the hell is this chick?!? IT’S ME! It’s the girl I’ve always been inside… But didn’t even know it. Originally, my blog was entitled Disappearing Darling: My journey to reveal the girl I always knew I was… But the world struggled to see.” Well, I have discovered, I really didn’t know me. I knew who I THOUGHT I was… But not who I REALLY am. Just so there is no confusion. I’m freaking awesome!
You are too! There are going to be things about yourself you didn’t even know. As your weight comes off (much like peeling an onion) you’ll find new and crazy things about yourself. Embrace that! Be that gal or guy! Love who you are! It’s OK to be different than you imagined yourself to be. It’s fine to not like some stuff you used to do and like new stuff. It’s about self discovery and learning the new you. I’m pretty stoked about me. My outlook on life is totally different. More positive and adventurous. I can’t wait to see what else I learn about me!
See y’all next month!