Well… It’s here. Time for the eleven month check in. I’ll get the stats out of the way because that’s pretty much what everyone wants to know. LOL!

  • Starting weight May 5, 2015: 300
  • May 18, 2015: 270 (-30)
  • Month ONE – June 5, 2015: 260 (-40)
  • Month TWO – July 8, 2015: 239 (-61)
  • Month THREE – August 5, 2015: 225 (-75)
  • Month FOUR – September 5, 2015 210 (-90)
  • Month FIVE – October 5, 2015 199 (-101)
  • Month SIX – November 5, 2015 188 (-112)
  • Month SEVEN – December 5, 2015 178 (-122)
  • Month EIGHT – January 6, 2016 174 (-126)
  • Month NINE – February 5, 2016 170 (-130)
  • Month TEN – March 5, 2016 166 (-134)
  • Month ELEVEN – April 5, 2016 163 (-137)

So basically I only lost three pounds this past month. I’m totally fine with that. By hitting the 163 mark, I am officially in the “normal” BMI range. This has been so insane to comprehend. I wear a size 10 pants and a medium/large top. Just depends on what my boobies want to fit in. I’ve gone from a 42DDD to a 36DD. But when I take my bra off… We are talking knee knockers! LOL! Flat and deflated. But again… A great bra handles that and I’m ok with them. If I had the excess skin removed from my belly I would probably be a size 8 but I won’t even entertain surgery for at least a year. And even then… It’s a matter of finances. I still want to lose another 13 pounds. That would make me feel more comfortable with the daily fluctuations of my weight. I had been teetering between 164 and 163 for weeks. That was horrible. I’d be like, “I’m skinny today.” “I’m fat today.” “I’m skinny today.” “I’m fat today.” I’ve stayed sold at 163 for multiple days so I think I’m about to hit 162. But the BMI bouncing up and down between “normal” and “overweight” was a big mind screw. If I lose the next 13 then fluctuations won’t freak me out as bad.

Ok… On to revelations… 


So, I’ve talked about discovering yourself before. Let me tell you… It really is just the wildest ride ever!!! I have learned to Stand Up Paddle Board. I bought myself a cool ass bike AND I like riding it. I still workout 5 days a week religiously. I became an archery coach (our team just took 3rd place at the state competition). I wear leggings AND look good in them. I love fashion and enjoy shopping just to put clothes on and don’t even have to buy them. I walk around my bedroom with no clothes on and don’t run if my husband comes in. I am about to take SCUBA diving lessons. Who the hell is this chick?!? IT’S ME! It’s the girl I’ve always been inside… But didn’t even know it. Originally, my blog was entitled Disappearing Darling: My journey to reveal the girl I always knew I was… But the world struggled to see.” Well, I have discovered, I really didn’t know me. I knew who I THOUGHT I was… But not who I REALLY am. Just so there is no confusion. I’m freaking awesome! 

You are too! There are going to be things about yourself you didn’t even know. As your weight comes off (much like peeling an onion) you’ll find new and crazy things about yourself. Embrace that! Be that gal or guy! Love who you are! It’s OK to be different than you imagined yourself to be. It’s fine to not like some stuff you used to do and like new stuff. It’s about self discovery and learning the new you. I’m pretty stoked about me. My outlook on life is totally different. More positive and adventurous. I can’t wait to see what else I learn about me!

See y’all next month!



9 thoughts on “Eleven!

  1. I love this and I am so happy for you on your current weight loss!!!! I cant wait until I get to the point where I get to discover new things about myself. You have also been a huge support for me through the stressful time so I wanted to say thank you and I cant wait to continue to keep up with your journey!!

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    • Happy to help! I know the early days are hurry up and wait… Hurry up and wait! It gets better. It is almost surreal that my one year is coming up soon. I NEVER thought I would get there. You will too! Let me know if you ever have questions. That’s what us old gals are here for. Support and tips!!!👍🏼 Can’t wait to hear about your results!


    • There will be a variety of struggles along the way. Just be true to yourself, stand firm with your goals, and don’t let anything that others say make you feel bad/guilty/sad/embarrassed/etc. I know that doesn’t make a whole lot of sense right now… But those are emotions that people will try to put on you… Don’t go there. Focus on the positives! There are more than enough!!!


  2. I love this x 1000+. You are awesome. You always were – but now YOU are seeing how awesome you really are – and that, my friend is magical. You have done so well throughout your entire journey including the 3 lb loss this month. It does start to slow down as you get closer, but 3 lbs at your weight is like 10 lbs when you were over 200, you know? May you continue to find yourself and keep rockin those adventures. You inspire me, friend!

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    • Thanks so much! It has been a joy walking this path with you and learning all the new and exciting things along the way. It’s been good to know we aren’t all too different that we can’t learn something from each other. Thank you for being a friend and an encourager. Women need more of those in their life. Thank you for always building me up and yet lighting a fire under my fanny when it’s been needed. You’re a great friend!!!😊

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      • No thanks needed – you do the same for me and I need that in my life. Very thankful for your friendship!! I agree that women need more encouragers and supporters especially with this topic. I always say that someone else’s success isn’t your failure and yet as women we seem to lean that way. Xoxo

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